I woke up very early today, I was struggling to sleep.
I had a blog post tumbling around in my head, it was waking me up as I tried to make sense of the story.
I opened my lap top and began to write, it was not making sense.
I kept writing, it was not improving.
I still kept writing, it was getting worse.
I made a pot of tea then returned and wrote some more.
Ate my muesli while writing.
I finally stepped away, the post had become a mess, my mind wandering off on hundreds of tangents.
The shower always helps, off I went.
I came back and frustratingly my mind picked up where I left off.
It was at this point I instinctively knew I should let this one go. Clearly my thoughts were not all there, this message not ready to completely come out.
Instead, I tried to force it out.
I had invested hours of my early morning, time ignoring the kids, time not doing anything but slamming away on my keyboard and pulling at my hair.
My stubbornness and determination took over, I was not going to quit. I would make this blog post work no matter what.
At exactly 1.53pm this afternoon I stood back and I looked at the mess of jumbled sentences all over my screen.
I pressed delete.
Relief swept over me and inspiration returned.
Success is pushing through resistance and not giving up. Success is also knowing when to pause, when to change direction and even when to begin again.
There is no shame in letting go and starting over.
Have you ever started over, what did you learn?